Go? or Don't go? Doubt

yesterday had a lot of things to write down...

but lazy then now barely can remember ==

maybe no mood...

not maybe maybe...

U just ruined my mood

N screwed up things

everyday i can hear

U MUST STUDY VERY HARD

DIE DIE ALSO MUST GET A's(not one only)

NO MORE ACTIVITIES FRIEND CALL JUST SAY SORRY

U MUST SACRIFICE

these words...it's like in movies they repeat what others words...

i can do that as well...

hmm,

i'm still doubting...

air steward

wanna go for it?or not?

try out?but if try i sure go for it dy...

go?don't go?

yes?no?

any comment?

shit

stunned...dunno what to type neemore...